The Fire

For most of October and November, I didn't feel great. My vision was blurry, the steroid infusions made me nauseous and tired, and then the lumbar puncture made me extremely nauseous, dizzy, and gave me an awful headache. I spent a lot of time those first few weeks in the massage chair, on the couch,… Continue reading The Fire

Panic Attack

I’m a type-A, control-freak, lawyer. I research everything, obsessively. From what car to buy, to skin care, to child care, and everything in between (unless its something that bores me to tears). So, naturally, when I first realized I might have MS, I started researching MS, reading articles, studies, watching videos, listening to podcasts. And,… Continue reading Panic Attack

Unexpected Results

I did a lumbar puncture to determine whether my vision loss was due to MS. From my own research, I knew that one thing that can indicate MS is protein in the spinal fluid. I was hoping the results would confirm MS. I wanted a diagnosis; I wanted an answer. Then, I could start treatment;… Continue reading Unexpected Results

The “Headache”

After the lumbar puncture, I had an awful headache and my back hurt so much that it was hard to walk. The intense, piercing headache subsided pretty quickly. But, the intense back pain that made me walk hunched over, in slow, deliberate steps lasted into the next day. It was hard to sleep that night.… Continue reading The “Headache”

Lumbar Puncture

When I first read that a lumbar puncture was a common diagnostic test for MS, I immediately thought, "spinal tap." Horror movie. Heavy metal. Hammering a nail into your spine, excruciating pain, dangerous. But, then a remembered that I'd had a spinal block when my son was born and it wasn't that big of a… Continue reading Lumbar Puncture

First Neurologist Appointment

I was anxious and excited to finally talk to a neurologist. It had been five days since I lost vision in my right eye. Five days of doctor's appointments, steroid infusions, blood draws, and an MRI. Five days of Googling symptoms, wondering, and worrying about what was wrong with me. Five days with no answers.… Continue reading First Neurologist Appointment


When I left the eye doctor, I was in tears. I couldn't see out of my right eye. I knew it was neurological, but I didn't know what was wrong with me. The eye doctor told me to go to urgent care for a neurological exam, steroids, and an MRI. I was panicking, imagining the… Continue reading Steroids

Day One: I Can’t See

On Thursday I worked from home while my son had virtual school. We went to a protest for police accountability and racial justice; we held signs, we chanted, and we listened to powerful speakers. On the way home, we sang along with the radio and danced in the car, not caring how silly we looked.… Continue reading Day One: I Can’t See